My Voiceless Screaming

Every joy Every sorrow Every emotions That it flows All I can think is you Shared with you You, the one and only No one else that I want it to be From the whole world You are the one is enough for me Thank you And I love you I am sorry for others Not because you are forgotten But for a fragile man like me Its better to keep me safe and keep my precious one only

Defect imperfect Old easy to crack My head inside You know it already My heart hurts You feel it already You know what I will do You made me promise to not to do Before I am telling you Your hug and smile heal me too I am sorry for what I am But love just come by itself we can't defend I will do my best to be with you Just the way you do your best even i hurt you Thank you...

Hey, look up! Said with smile and bright Words being said Can't be heard and can only wait Hey, look up... Said with sad and cloudy Told about a story Can't be read and can't be seen Storms coming Dark and longing Can only smile and hear Those thunders and fear Days passing by Stories being told But history stay Those forgotten and I just surrender with smile

My red and white now colored in black My blue sky now is black My blue mountain is black Black by the chaos and crack Every direction I saw is black My breath is black My heart is black Black by the scream out loud I just want to tear my chest a part I scream out loud so loud till no one can hear it wtf When the earth will stop shaking When the red will gone from the night When the rocks stay put I'm so hurt and so fucked up I am so black

Been so long I haven't fight I almost forgot how my beast get caught Lowering my guard, break me a part I am so weak now, don't have any gut I eat my pride, the last treasure I have Only hoping its worth then stay nothing and be fucked up Blood from my wounds start to flow back I am just too weak to stop them and let myself cracked Stamp of the foot on my mouth I am just so damn weak to just talk Maybe I'm just too old to face that back All I can do just keep in mind that its her dog who bite I see to the sky, wind goes by I see to the past, but can't say good bye I lookup for peace by keeping my daughter accompany But she dispel me, she just too comfort with her own only Well, maybe its true.. I'm just too old for this shit Its better keep my mouth shout and do what is necessary Now I just enjoy how silence this day to be while watching the blood all over my rusty body I'm soo tired and weak I'm just too old just the way it should be I just can only smile a

Song can be heard, when closing your eyes and be quiet Sometime sad sometime full of joy But we are trying to be a duet And we are dancing with good oh boy Today my heart beats so fast Following the beat of the songs Songs of our life, the love and the clash But we kept dancing boldly nothing go wrong We hold each others, with blood all over We hug each others, with scars We keep dancing, with our broken wings hope for better We just keep smiling, though like in a bar Lonely, missing, loving, mixed to be a liquor of life And we drunk of it till sober You have your fight while i have mine too But I keep waiting here till seeing you How long this would be last? Will it be slow of fast? Just keep dancing babe.. Just keep dancing...

Today is so quite Hell of busy today for my soulmate Lucky seem the wind rides smoothly While I my own facing difficulty Today is so silence And so on days coming will happen But we both know the storms forming Keep building up wait till we are coming We did facing some of it now But I stated myself that I am not alone And also do hope you are too Since you have a difficulty too Ready or not, storm will coming And we both need to be strong If we can't be that strong, just sing As long as we are together nothing go wrong Today.. I smile I saw the wind blows the sky I can feel the silent of the day Hope we are ready dear, if not, just sing along and hug each other till end

There he is, stood up like a guardian My bear, keep me acompany at the gate of hell Time keep running while I am doing my plan But I know the beast awaken and I have ring my bell So many thought in my mind But can't write a single word for long time Time has over the nine And I still trying to be fine Suspicious, afraid, pesimistic and lonely Those feelings started to rampage my heart I know my beast awaken And I tried to not to be taken One by one of those friends I listed But none I send them the word I just want to be silence And tried to guard them not to be hurt I'm just so tired very tired Keep fighting this kind of things Things that I cannot shared All I can do just hug my dearest My guardian dark angel I know I can only dreaming With the wind whispering and calming