My Voiceless Screaming

Today is so quite Hell of busy today for my soulmate Lucky seem the wind rides smoothly While I my own facing difficulty Today is so silence And so on days coming will happen But we both know the storms forming Keep building up wait till we are coming We did facing some of it now But I stated myself that I am not alone And also do hope you are too Since you have a difficulty too Ready or not, storm will coming And we both need to be strong If we can't be that strong, just sing As long as we are together nothing go wrong Today.. I smile I saw the wind blows the sky I can feel the silent of the day Hope we are ready dear, if not, just sing along and hug each other till end

There he is, stood up like a guardian My bear, keep me acompany at the gate of hell Time keep running while I am doing my plan But I know the beast awaken and I have ring my bell So many thought in my mind But can't write a single word for long time Time has over the nine And I still trying to be fine Suspicious, afraid, pesimistic and lonely Those feelings started to rampage my heart I know my beast awaken And I tried to not to be taken One by one of those friends I listed But none I send them the word I just want to be silence And tried to guard them not to be hurt I'm just so tired very tired Keep fighting this kind of things Things that I cannot shared All I can do just hug my dearest My guardian dark angel I know I can only dreaming With the wind whispering and calming

the fight of the will when we communicate and take care of some parts the fight of the will when she laugh and smile while I am stay still The fight of the will When her eyes swollen and I am tried to ignore The fight of the will When they talk and play together while I stay away Indeed there is fight of the will today And i am so tired but keep pushing myself away I have make up my mind, let's see who gonna win

I know you just trying to be strong for me I know I can't do anything to help you Except to trust you and you trust me And I am hugging you now while you hug me So yeah, I can finally moving my ass now While i kept thinking about you I can start to packing now And my mind keep occupied by you No, you are not all right just like me No I am refuse to give up Hope you can do like me Long road a head Can't be faced by laying my back on my seat With the pain of my body And the hurt in you and me I will keep walking... keep walking.. till my last drop of my blood to fight the happiness for you and me

With dogs in both of us Its a matter of seconds we hurt each other Our love tested, our love heal it And we are sorry each other We should admit our road is rocky Not as easy like common ppl should be Can't openly express our love Cant openly say the world how our love One or two who know it is good enough Then nothing at all, right? We should fight more to have Our happiness that we are wanted so much Thanks for the prayer to the wind goes by Thanks to everyone who wishing us great day With love as our foundation that we kept to fight Hope we can overcome any challenges a head The worst part is when we miss each other Can't do nothing except look each other Saying how we love each other Still can't lesser the pressure inside on how much I love her Hufh... daily routine that maybe bored for everyone who read But it motivate us to move forward and ready for our goal a head From the time I opened my eyes I miss her.. I love her.. and hope I am not ...

Shaking Sweating Hard to breath Hard to think Hurt to the body Hurt to the mind Hurt to the heart Hurt to my stomach My body start to refuse what I am telling My head hurt and spinning My bear suddenly coming Calm me down and make me resting I want to rest... But not now.. I need to go home She is waiting... Not now... V'z whfg ab bar...

Your kids are not real Your wife are not real All seem so far away and I can't be heal The only real thing you can feel is the loneliness that you can't deal The feeling that you just want to give up Expecting a real hug that you will never have The loneliness that torture you rise up Keep finding the reason to stay alive Less people want to bear it At the end you felt that you need to face it alone I got bipolar and I accept it Hitting the wall just to make me not down Who can understand how painful it is The feeling that crush your will of live No wonder everyone at the end leave Hard to understand for me why they insist to make me alive Years ago I can make it to stay alive When I am about to stop my breath Now I felt more easy to do so But I tried my best to hold your words You said you do care fore me So, Im staying alive to make your care important for me Will it be enough to make me survive? The hurt still there, but for now I think its enough V'z whfg ab bar...

The tittle said everything.. and the bullets fly through my heart I am here with honest.. but well, she is in hard... Dear my lady and my angel.. hang on there If you think you can make me hate you, well you are wrong there You can do whatever you want to me, i will be okay My love is pure and strong, will always right beside you with care V'z whfg ab bar