My Voiceless Screaming

So crowded now, but I'm so empty You shhh me, but I'm missing you like crazy To do anything, I'm so lazy Even my beast, laying there with no energy Trying to write, but i don't know what to do wish you are here now, and allow me to hug you Day by day passed, and I'm still have no clue don't care with my dress, everyday I'm just feeling blue Dear my angel, wish you all the best with your broken wings I will always be here to grab you if you are falling A word from you is amazing gift for me the one who felt has no destiny Please be happy my lady Cause I will happy for you Please be strong my lady Cause I will be strong for you too hufh...

Tick Tock Tick Tock Keep starring on the wall Tick Tock Tick Tock Hoping you show up just like usual Tick Tock Tick Tock Times keep ticking Tick Tock Tick Tock I am still waiting Tick Tock Tick Tock We talk a lot without a word Tick Tock Tick Tock Even only Online status not a word Tick Tock Tick Tock Time is about to up Tick Tock Tick Tock When we usually good bye the night Time is up my dear Thanks God I can survive the day I hope to see you tomorrow dear Hope next time we can say good bye Hufh...

Been long time I can feel the wind on my face again Been long time And Im happy like kid in the rain Rocky road I chosen Along with my angel who is broken We both broken With bitter life eaten The song sing by the wind Make me comfort on its own way I heard it and remind me how the desert became green Tame my devil inside to catch its prey

I kept thinking and thinking so hard on how to prove my love to you... And I am sinking now in the ocean of truth that I love you... A big stone of love right on top of my chest make me hard to breath Dark all around me and light only come from your face, I am suffer to death I wish I could talk more but I can't I wish I could make a beautiful poem, I failed In my fever and cold, I'm just thinking of you In this heavy rain, I'm just hoping to hold you We are dancing under the dark shadow The shadow that never surrender and let you go You are insist to dance with the shadow All I can do just believe in you and let go At the end, i just put my smile on my face I give up my life to the destiny Hope i can go home and take a rest With you laying right beside me But I kept sinking and sinking With the hurt inside me I kept sinking and sinking To the deep ocean with my black dog right beside me

It seem quite normal Day so cloudy and dark like used to be But I felt like dying, crawl.. When you are not near me So dear wind We just hugged each other Then tears falling down She far away make me sobber Up and down like it used to be Tired of fighting, thinking when it gonna end Everyday trying to be happy But you and me know it only happen when we blend Just keep breathing dear You and me... Just keep hoping dear Happy ending we can see

What's the meaning of life? To keep breathing every day and walk through day by day? Watch the cloud moving, and the rain wash the earth? Fill the emptiness with anything you could find? Some trying to conquer it with their last breath Some trying to live the life to the fullest, with sorrow Some trying to find a meaning of it till they close their eyes Other just live just the way it is, keep walking day by day Flute can be heard from dense air Cheer of the day can be heard when you finally can meet her You are trying to hug her, but you realize you just grab an empty air So my dearest wind, as you can see that's how life is So what is life... cold, empty, dark and sorrow? Or lonely, heart breaking and low Nah... life is life... where we can cry and laugh Dark cloud is moving, rain is about to pour I am just waiting to meet her, to make my life has a meaning There it is.. my life is her Life has no meaning without her

New city New life New smile New talk New neighbor New laugh But leaving from a shadow is not that easy Sometime we just don't want to leave it and let it be No push, No hurry Understanding and be wisely I can see it clearly and its okay for me I will always be here in any shape you want me to be Beside... for me, you are my reason, one and only

Wake up with fresh new air At the first time of my morning Deep sleep with my bear Easy wake with moaning I say hi with no worry I say love with honestly I miss you like crazy I wake up with hope and shiny Bear playing around while I am working Sun rise in my left, telling me how beautiful first morning to be First day of new life First day of new beginning With you and me smiling Birds singing with a beautiful orchestra Yellow sunrise added some extra I am just thinking about you And i felt warmth just imagine on how I hug and kiss you What a beautiful first morning Hope someday we can be together soon without worry

I just about to celebrate my free With you, enjoy the nature and world to see Please don't think about die dear Since I still need you to life and be happy No need to ask me to die together Since without you, I don't think I can survive either I could die alone, old and lonely Or die soon in miserably Please don't die and hang on there my lady You are my reason and keep stay here Please be patience my love I am hugging you with my fear I love you so much dear.. And now I have nothing to think except to fear Fear that you gonna make it Fear that I will be lonely and sick without you here...

Every joy Every sorrow Every emotions That it flows All I can think is you Shared with you You, the one and only No one else that I want it to be From the whole world You are the one is enough for me Thank you And I love you I am sorry for others Not because you are forgotten But for a fragile man like me Its better to keep me safe and keep my precious one only

Defect imperfect Old easy to crack My head inside You know it already My heart hurts You feel it already You know what I will do You made me promise to not to do Before I am telling you Your hug and smile heal me too I am sorry for what I am But love just come by itself we can't defend I will do my best to be with you Just the way you do your best even i hurt you Thank you...

Today is so quite Hell of busy today for my soulmate Lucky seem the wind rides smoothly While I my own facing difficulty Today is so silence And so on days coming will happen But we both know the storms forming Keep building up wait till we are coming We did facing some of it now But I stated myself that I am not alone And also do hope you are too Since you have a difficulty too Ready or not, storm will coming And we both need to be strong If we can't be that strong, just sing As long as we are together nothing go wrong Today.. I smile I saw the wind blows the sky I can feel the silent of the day Hope we are ready dear, if not, just sing along and hug each other till end

The earth could be shaking the sky could be broken Tears could always flowing But it wont change a thing I love you so much dear and i cant stop this feeling.... Back to my seat with sweat all over from top to feet I just want you to know That I always love you No, I dont wanna be a hero I just come to you as a plain simple man who love you with lots of hurt and pain marked blue There is thorn a head so wtf? let's get through it! there is a big hole on our road So grab your hand, and fly over it with your wing damn it! There is a giant skeleton who block our way So grab my hand! and let me smash it with my sword! I have a broken wings, but you the one who have them now You have a broken fist, I am the one who have it now So what the fuck and march! (continue to packing my stuff)

I know you just trying to be strong for me I know I can't do anything to help you Except to trust you and you trust me And I am hugging you now while you hug me So yeah, I can finally moving my ass now While i kept thinking about you I can start to packing now And my mind keep occupied by you No, you are not all right just like me No I am refuse to give up Hope you can do like me Long road a head Can't be faced by laying my back on my seat With the pain of my body And the hurt in you and me I will keep walking... keep walking.. till my last drop of my blood to fight the happiness for you and me

I know we are in hardship I know your pain is deep I know you just want to stop breath But I will always be here Night so quite after we laugh But then the storm come and strike You slept with the tears But I will do my best to help you dear I know I can't help much with your struggle But you are not alone facing the obstacles Today the day is cloudy Hope tomorrow will be easy In this silent night I hold you Put you in my arms to comfort you I know its only in our mind Hope we can be together soon and we'll be fine I wish I could do more Put that burden on my shoulder Get you out from your horror And we will be happy forever But this is the reality dear But mark my word I will fight your fear Keep in mind that you are not alone Just we promised that we are bond I can't offer you anything except that I love you It's hard to see you like dying But I will always be with you

Kupikir seperti itulah hidup Berjuang untuk orang lain Berusaha diterima oleh orang lain Berusaha membahagiakan orang lain Kupikir akulah sang bijaksana Mengarahkan mereka yang nestapa Memperkuat mereka yang terperdaya Berusaha ada untuk mereka yang sengsara Kupikir aku memang seperti ini Ditakdirkan untuk orang lain Selalu merasa empathy pada yang lain Bahkan tidak ragu memberikan nyawa untuk mengganti Kupikir memang aku harus selalu mengalah Harus mengalah agar bisa mendpatkan senyumnya Harus mengalah agar keinginanku terpenuhi Harus mengalah agar bisa mendapatkan pelukan Bukan karena diinginkan, bukan karena dicintai Kupikir aku telah mengenal diriku seutuhnya Kupikir aku yang telah menjalani waktu Mengerti sepenuhnya akan diriku Mengerti sepenuhnya akan bipolarku Dan kotak pandora pun terbuka Oleh sang begawan bijaksana Selama ini aku terbelenggu Aku harus meninggalkan pendampingku Dan aku termangu... Terjawab sudah semua kelabu Dengan dark angel di...

The hill is tiny With sparkling little lights down it With the funny comedy We celebrate the oath and happy This is almost midnight Tears from both of us flowing You take another oath from me Show me how you care for me Yes I have changed Yes I am different now But that bad cloudy always lingering And the oath help me to fighting I know I did hurt you And so you did to me But we both love each other And those love made our bond stronger We don't know what will happen at the future All I know everything gonna be all right as long we are together Thank you for loving me And thank you to understand me better then anyone around me Storm could come again Beast would soar again But I will remember my oath And will hold it to my last breath I love you...

I may far away from you But trust me, I am hugging you Hope you can sleep tight And my present can calm you Watching you slept dear Through magic mirror Hope my image dear Drive away evils around you Sweet dream my lovely My heart ache while you are uneasy Cold morning coming dear Hope you can feel the warmth without body I love you more then love Hope my love warmth enough to hug you

Known as Tree of Wisdom Turn out now its dried No inspiration Still live but almost down I came to the tree But the tree is no difference like me Except that its still perfect and beautiful While I am damaged, old and always misunderstood Keep stay still and be patience is not my style I felt like loosing the will But I do confuse too I have no clue and dunno what to do There should be a way to hack our life to a better way I love her so much I need to break the ice and out from my comfort hive Come on brain, think! God damn! Think brain think! I know you got defect But I don't care! Think! V'z whfg ab bar...

With dogs in both of us Its a matter of seconds we hurt each other Our love tested, our love heal it And we are sorry each other We should admit our road is rocky Not as easy like common ppl should be Can't openly express our love Cant openly say the world how our love One or two who know it is good enough Then nothing at all, right? We should fight more to have Our happiness that we are wanted so much Thanks for the prayer to the wind goes by Thanks to everyone who wishing us great day With love as our foundation that we kept to fight Hope we can overcome any challenges a head The worst part is when we miss each other Can't do nothing except look each other Saying how we love each other Still can't lesser the pressure inside on how much I love her Hufh... daily routine that maybe bored for everyone who read But it motivate us to move forward and ready for our goal a head From the time I opened my eyes I miss her.. I love her.. and hope I am not ...