My Voiceless Screaming

Time is up.. Where is she Night is late But I can't see My heart so itchy Calling your name loudly I know I am sleepy But can't sleep before you talk to me Proper good bye you said That's what I am looking for It's getting late to night But worth to fight for However life has changed You wont get that bye-bye I should accept the changed End the night without proper good bye Its okay my lady I understand and please don't sorry I smile my lady I sent my good bye to you silently Miss u so much, be good and take care my lady Love u so much, sleep tight and sweet dream my lady

So crowded now, but I'm so empty You shhh me, but I'm missing you like crazy To do anything, I'm so lazy Even my beast, laying there with no energy Trying to write, but i don't know what to do wish you are here now, and allow me to hug you Day by day passed, and I'm still have no clue don't care with my dress, everyday I'm just feeling blue Dear my angel, wish you all the best with your broken wings I will always be here to grab you if you are falling A word from you is amazing gift for me the one who felt has no destiny Please be happy my lady Cause I will happy for you Please be strong my lady Cause I will be strong for you too hufh...

Staring on your name... silence Staring on your name... but nothing happen Without saying a word waiting Wish your online status typing Dear my lady, don't you know that i am lonely Without you to make me happy The pain is real miserably I'm trying to sleep but its so heavy Staring on your name I am missing you Staring on your name I wish I could hug you hufh...

Pukul 7 malam hari dalam malam yang sunyi Petik gitar ku berbunyi Sampaikan rindu di hati menanti kamu disini Kucing coklat hilir mudik Gelisah wakili hati Ku menanti dirimu kasih Nada-nada yang dirangkai hati Balut pedih susah di hati Reffx2: tenanglah kasihku hadirmu kutunggu janganlah engkau meragu Kucing coklat hilir mudik Gelisah wakili hati Ku menanti dirimu kasih Nada-nada yang dirangkai hati Balut pedih susah di hati x2

Suaramu, bayangmu, senyummu, terbayang selalu Semakin berusaha melupakan, semakin membayang di kalbu Kamu, belahan jiwaku... Membuatku kehilangan kata2 rindukanmu Duhai kamu, yang ingin kusapa disana Tahukah kamu belahan hatiku masih kau bawa Kutahu dirimu telah ada yang lain Tapi hati ini tak jua bisa berpaling Kamu, kurengkuh sepenuh hati dalam sanubari Hangat terasa dan sakit tak terperi Darahku memancar dari belahan hati Ketika kupererat pelukan dalam diri Rindu ini terlarang Tapi aku semakin meradang Berdenyut... menyakitkan Duhai aku teramat sayang... Hufh...

Rasa Yang terukir didada Rasa Yang tercipta membara Rindu Yang terus menggelayut kalbu Teringat dirimu tak pernah kuragu Teringat dirimu tak lagi sendu Reff: Kuharap kau disini temani ku sendiri Arungi dunia bagai surga duniawi Meraih asa di dada Mengungkap rasa yang ada Menari bersatu dalam sukma ini Rasa Yang terukir didada Rasa Yang tercipta membara Rindu Yang terus menggelayut kalbu Teringat dirimu tak pernah kuragu Teringat dirimu tak lagi sendu Rasa...

Tick Tock Tick Tock Keep starring on the wall Tick Tock Tick Tock Hoping you show up just like usual Tick Tock Tick Tock Times keep ticking Tick Tock Tick Tock I am still waiting Tick Tock Tick Tock We talk a lot without a word Tick Tock Tick Tock Even only Online status not a word Tick Tock Tick Tock Time is about to up Tick Tock Tick Tock When we usually good bye the night Time is up my dear Thanks God I can survive the day I hope to see you tomorrow dear Hope next time we can say good bye Hufh...

The sun so bright its light glowing to my face I am just about to wake up With knife stabed in my chest But somehow, I didnt suffer No blood from my wound like it used to be I just felt numb Take out the knife, I feel so empty Ohh I do love to talking But dunno to whom i can sharing I am tired to keep hurting I am bored to dying I am so lazy today to do anything I am so lazy just to breathing Strike come so early I know I never be ready Closing my eyes, expect the warmth from the wind Touching my face, ssh me to stop talking But now I am just another coward who afraid of changing Better to stay lonely and enjoy what happening This gonna be a long lonely day Oh well.. What can I say I have her and she always stay But my black dog is here, and put her away

What's the meaning of life? To keep breathing every day and walk through day by day? Watch the cloud moving, and the rain wash the earth? Fill the emptiness with anything you could find? Some trying to conquer it with their last breath Some trying to live the life to the fullest, with sorrow Some trying to find a meaning of it till they close their eyes Other just live just the way it is, keep walking day by day Flute can be heard from dense air Cheer of the day can be heard when you finally can meet her You are trying to hug her, but you realize you just grab an empty air So my dearest wind, as you can see that's how life is So what is life... cold, empty, dark and sorrow? Or lonely, heart breaking and low Nah... life is life... where we can cry and laugh Dark cloud is moving, rain is about to pour I am just waiting to meet her, to make my life has a meaning There it is.. my life is her Life has no meaning without her

Hey, look up! Said with smile and bright Words being said Can't be heard and can only wait Hey, look up... Said with sad and cloudy Told about a story Can't be read and can't be seen Storms coming Dark and longing Can only smile and hear Those thunders and fear Days passing by Stories being told But history stay Those forgotten and I just surrender with smile

Song can be heard, when closing your eyes and be quiet Sometime sad sometime full of joy But we are trying to be a duet And we are dancing with good oh boy Today my heart beats so fast Following the beat of the songs Songs of our life, the love and the clash But we kept dancing boldly nothing go wrong We hold each others, with blood all over We hug each others, with scars We keep dancing, with our broken wings hope for better We just keep smiling, though like in a bar Lonely, missing, loving, mixed to be a liquor of life And we drunk of it till sober You have your fight while i have mine too But I keep waiting here till seeing you How long this would be last? Will it be slow of fast? Just keep dancing babe.. Just keep dancing...

There he is, stood up like a guardian My bear, keep me acompany at the gate of hell Time keep running while I am doing my plan But I know the beast awaken and I have ring my bell So many thought in my mind But can't write a single word for long time Time has over the nine And I still trying to be fine Suspicious, afraid, pesimistic and lonely Those feelings started to rampage my heart I know my beast awaken And I tried to not to be taken One by one of those friends I listed But none I send them the word I just want to be silence And tried to guard them not to be hurt I'm just so tired very tired Keep fighting this kind of things Things that I cannot shared All I can do just hug my dearest My guardian dark angel I know I can only dreaming With the wind whispering and calming

There was a sand castle From little tinny To up high like a hill With waves keep hitting it, make it no castle at all Some said it becomes a coral reef Other said it becomes simply sand But one thing for sure Many creatures living and enjoy happily on it One come and go many times Sand castle always the same Thought storm nor bright day come Its always the same Only few who know it few who see it few who understand it It was a sand castle, hit by the waves many times Sea is its tears the wind is its breath sound of the waves is its heart And the joy of creature playing on it, is its happiness Without them... There is no sand castle at all

What should I do if I tired of living?

Numb Dunno what to do My heart is fine No sad or beat up or nothing But I'm so lonely I called the one that I love Ofc she is the first one that I think of But surely its not the right time Less then a minute and off Called my mom She instantly talking Everything I'm just listening And off.. I started to sad and looking who I need to call I am thinking if I stand up on the bridge Jumping to the river, will He forgive me? Ofc no... If I am in hell, will it forever? Hm... My heart is fine, no hurt or anything.. But cutting my vein in my hand seem interesting One last call To the tree of wisdom She surprised, she said she is working with her colleague in her home I just want to hear her voice i said Less then a minute and off So well... Dear blog To you I share my burden again With my  bear keep trying to stay around me I just dont know if my med work on me Its not a poem, its only phrases divided to several blocks Silly I am, wishing to make a...

When I only talk to one And she just silence I felt drifted to space Flying without gravity Except that the empty is not the air The empty is here inside When you miss her so much And you can't do anything except wait An astray dog like me Can't expect more except mercy But don't get me wrong I am happy with this only Can you imagine when your wet fur touched by the hand of the beauty? Can you imagine when you are in hungry a beautiful one feed your hungry? Can you imagine when you re in cold, a beautiful one hug you tightly? I can't expect more... This already to good to be true I knew i am lonely I knew I am missing her daily But one thing I asked to the One and Only Please don't wake me up from this dream and make it reality V'z whfg ab bar..

I knew you are always around I can't touch yet can't talk But you do know I love her so much Does it really matter? When the wind blow pass through like lightning? Sure did really matter Since the kite wont fly without Dear Wind I am glad you still touching my cheek While I am still waiting for her The one that I love so much Indeed she hurt me Indeed her love is not it used to be But what can I say I love her so much A volcano sometime erupts An ocean has its tsunami A wind has its tornado A bee has its sting I do understand all And hope others understand me That I love my dark angel so much Just like my bear now who keep persistent to jump on my lap V'z whfg ab bar

My stomach in pain I dunno why it made my heart pain more Stiff on my back I dunno why it made my heart pain more The silence of both I dunno why it added to my pain I did mistakes I dunno who i am Afraid to write Afraid to do anything The Friday is end I am so sad I'm still living V'z whfg ab bar...

When a tadpole want to be a frog It needs to wait When a cocoon want to be a butterfly It needs to wait When a grass need to be a rice It needs to wait When an egg need to hatched It needs to wait I wish could kill the time So i don't need to wait... V'z whfg ab bar...

March to a battle field Win it and have a glory Save your beloved one or enemy Trying your best to not empty Hard you try Finally you die Became part of the shadow Gone by the wind that blow to the sky