My Voiceless Screaming

So many things in my mind I do afraid to be left behind I miss her so deeply But can't tell her too many Take a deep breath repeatedly Hope to calm down my misery I have the hole inside and its empty Can't heal it up and I'm envy Day after day i am weaker Laying on my bed and can only whisper Dear my lady half of my heart I am missing u so much What will happen to me Dear Lord please help me hufh...

Ketika hampa kembali terasa Dan sang durjana tertawa hahaha Ketika sepi kembali menghujam Dan sang gelap menari tralala Tatap nanar kucing coklat menusuk Dengkurnya berusaha untuk memeluk Aku terdiam dalam gelap kelabu Rasakan kembali setan yang kurindu Kuhanya ingin kembali sendiri Tanpa ada yang bisa untuk mengerti Gelegak membuncah kembali tenang Ku tak lagi merasa gundah dan lapang Apalagi yang akan direnggut? Hanya kamu yang tersisa kenapa ku harus menakutinya? Ketika sepi kembali menghujam Dan sang gelap menari tralala Dia tak lagi senang Bayang dirimu kembali datang Pertempuran tak berkesudahan Dan aku hanya pasrah dalam temaram

Tersekat... Kelu mencekat Tak sanggup aku berharap mengingat.. Bernafas... Ku berusaha bernafas namun tak pernahlah cukup ingin memeluk... kau yang ada terus menghantui diriku kau yang membuatku takut kehilanganmu Tak mampu ku bayangkan tanpa dirimu Hingga aku terbujur kaku Tak mampu...

Suaramu, bayangmu, senyummu, terbayang selalu Semakin berusaha melupakan, semakin membayang di kalbu Kamu, belahan jiwaku... Membuatku kehilangan kata2 rindukanmu Duhai kamu, yang ingin kusapa disana Tahukah kamu belahan hatiku masih kau bawa Kutahu dirimu telah ada yang lain Tapi hati ini tak jua bisa berpaling Kamu, kurengkuh sepenuh hati dalam sanubari Hangat terasa dan sakit tak terperi Darahku memancar dari belahan hati Ketika kupererat pelukan dalam diri Rindu ini terlarang Tapi aku semakin meradang Berdenyut... menyakitkan Duhai aku teramat sayang... Hufh...

I though i am strong There will be nothing wrong But the truth is what I feel I miss her so fuckin real I felt ache in my heart I felt ache in my skin I wish i could torn them a part But you remind me to not making a sin Dear Lord I asked your forgiveness For the hurt that I barely hold Tears washing the hurt inside my chest Oh dear I just want to take you and hold Dear my lady and my soul Can you hear me i screaming your name out loud Dear my lady and half of my heart You are my sunshine in the middle of the crowd Kuma meowing sadly He just want to be hold gently How come he would know my feeling is mystery But hope I can cope and out of this misery I know its wrong but my love to you is real I know its wrong I do hope my pain can be healed Hufh...

I've been told... many times "no woman strong enough to be with me" I reject it at that times But then the mistake is me Years I tried to catch a love Years I tasted it like a dope I thought Its not a myth Damn, I just dip into another shit I learnt my lesson well With the hurt and swell Crawling to be live on Hope not to end like a moron I know its a myth Why I insist to taste it

Years being together Hope will be last forever But this is only a dream At the end, you pushed to choose him Good bye the oath that has been taken It only words to be burden We chosen the way of impossible We learnt the lesson that we taken At the end, there is only me and my black dog Hope only for those who has light despite the long journey and the road full of rocks But dream always has end unfortunate We are smile yet hurt so much But I know who I am more then ever now No i am sorry i am not mad Wish you all the best and fortune anyhow What should i do now? Where should i go? I am walking through the road again with more ache and pain we love each other but doesn't mean we can be together.. *smile.... what a life :)

The sun so bright its light glowing to my face I am just about to wake up With knife stabed in my chest But somehow, I didnt suffer No blood from my wound like it used to be I just felt numb Take out the knife, I feel so empty Ohh I do love to talking But dunno to whom i can sharing I am tired to keep hurting I am bored to dying I am so lazy today to do anything I am so lazy just to breathing Strike come so early I know I never be ready Closing my eyes, expect the warmth from the wind Touching my face, ssh me to stop talking But now I am just another coward who afraid of changing Better to stay lonely and enjoy what happening This gonna be a long lonely day Oh well.. What can I say I have her and she always stay But my black dog is here, and put her away

Welcome back dear my old friend Been very long time I miss you so much I am very glad that you came Though I have emotion no more Though my heart was blunt Turn out I still can feel you The warmth from the blood that burst from my wound Yes I know my place And yes I know where I belong Yes I know I'm the one who sick And yes I know I'm the one who seek I am happy dear Come my sadness Make my face warm with the tears I hug you tight the hurt and fear Good bye the light on sun rise Good bye the light on sun set I knew from beginning Its just another dream, just like it used to be V'z whfg ab bar...

My stomach in pain I dunno why it made my heart pain more Stiff on my back I dunno why it made my heart pain more The silence of both I dunno why it added to my pain I did mistakes I dunno who i am Afraid to write Afraid to do anything The Friday is end I am so sad I'm still living V'z whfg ab bar...

Today is Friday My stomach hurt so much last night, and do hope I die Today is Friday Sleep is hard and I pray that I die Today is Friday I was so happy to know this day I could be rest in peace And leave all of the pieces Too bad I am still live I am too tired to make together all the pieces V'z whfg ab bar...

A beautiful flower asked for protection from a defected ant An ant that has half of his head and ugly as fuck The ant like having a dream Ofc it welcomes the flower inside its home But it realize who is it anyway Compete with beautiful bee and butterfly that can fly? How come a defected weirdo ant like it can protect the flower Against those perfect bee and butterfly who want the flower? Let alone to protect the flower The ant itself hard to take care its own The defected ant thought can be safe under the flower's thorn But how come it can protect the flower from the threat while its just a clown? Love for the ant is like a dream For having someone beside him is just a myth it seem The ant tried to explain to the flower and the flower just push it to the corner The ant knows where its belong Its just a matter of time the flower will say good bye and so long An ant that has half of his head and ugly as fuck Wanting to has someone beauty like others jus...

I know you talk with him again, I can't blame you When you said will leave him, He never leave you... I know you are in pain, I can feel you I cant do anything, except pray for you But keep in mind you are not alone in this rain I am also in your pain Half of my heart still in you What can I say.. in my memory can only hug you... Time runs so slow, you are still in sorrow By the time goes by, I am also so low Dear my lady, the one and only Hope you are fine and I am sorry V'z whfg ab bar

My heart beats so fast... be strong dear, I can feel it because part of me still in her.. My stomach is cramped, be strong dear, I still connected to her... She shares how deep her love is to him, and it doubled my sorrow The fact that she is in hurt, make it triple effect of my sorrow My heart beats so fast.. but I need to be strong... All I wish that you can manage it without wrong... My body so stiff... my eyes heavy... my heart tremble... my body shaking... I can feel everything what she felt.. This is my gift and this is my curse, what can I say.. I do love her.. V'z whfg ab bar