My Voiceless Screaming

A dense air Heavy to breath Became a target Became a punch bag The beast is about to rise I am just smiled and pleased I'm hurt not because hurted by her I'm hurt because the way he treated her I have nothing to lose I can let it out and let it be free But I'm not allow it Let me the one who hurt only My love to her is so pure, bold and deep And today, I let my beast to sleep

New city New life New smile New talk New neighbor New laugh But leaving from a shadow is not that easy Sometime we just don't want to leave it and let it be No push, No hurry Understanding and be wisely I can see it clearly and its okay for me I will always be here in any shape you want me to be Beside... for me, you are my reason, one and only

Been so long I haven't fight I almost forgot how my beast get caught Lowering my guard, break me a part I am so weak now, don't have any gut I eat my pride, the last treasure I have Only hoping its worth then stay nothing and be fucked up Blood from my wounds start to flow back I am just too weak to stop them and let myself cracked Stamp of the foot on my mouth I am just so damn weak to just talk Maybe I'm just too old to face that back All I can do just keep in mind that its her dog who bite I see to the sky, wind goes by I see to the past, but can't say good bye I lookup for peace by keeping my daughter accompany But she dispel me, she just too comfort with her own only Well, maybe its true.. I'm just too old for this shit Its better keep my mouth shout and do what is necessary Now I just enjoy how silence this day to be while watching the blood all over my rusty body I'm soo tired and weak I'm just too old just the way it should be I just can only smile a...

I know you just trying to be strong for me I know I can't do anything to help you Except to trust you and you trust me And I am hugging you now while you hug me So yeah, I can finally moving my ass now While i kept thinking about you I can start to packing now And my mind keep occupied by you No, you are not all right just like me No I am refuse to give up Hope you can do like me Long road a head Can't be faced by laying my back on my seat With the pain of my body And the hurt in you and me I will keep walking... keep walking.. till my last drop of my blood to fight the happiness for you and me

Doc said I'm better now I nod and smile If he knew in the inside He would surprise what I hide I am still take a heavy breath sometime I am still missing her sometime I am still feeling lonely sometime I still go that tremor sometime I am so missing her all the time I am afraid to loosing her most of the time lol But well, I knew who I am Its just a miracle the fact that she still care I will just stay here with care Cause I love her, what can I say V'z whfg ab bar

The Mountain is always cloudy No matter how hard I try, I cant make it happy Doubt always can be seen For all the things it did and sins I would love to put myself to the ground if I have too Together with you to walk through I am hoping that you trust me That I wont leave you beside me The mountain stood there with agony Trying to keep the burden by itself and it hurt me But no worry dear, I will climb it Spit your lava and rocks to me, I will do my best to keep you company V'z whfg ab bar...

Shaking Sweating Hard to breath Hard to think Hurt to the body Hurt to the mind Hurt to the heart Hurt to my stomach My body start to refuse what I am telling My head hurt and spinning My bear suddenly coming Calm me down and make me resting I want to rest... But not now.. I need to go home She is waiting... Not now... V'z whfg ab bar...

Home Destroyed Angel fly away I failed To protect my precious away My heart taken My soul taken Only my love is not And hope after life still You fall to rise again By the time you fall, I fall too I tried my best to protect you But I am nothing compared to All Mighty too Years... Every seconds is our last moment With the wind, beast and everything around me I start to walking again, with a big hole in me JTTBOI, Just take the best of it Will always be here dear I love you more then love Finally I knew, what is my love to you Be strong dear, or I will go there to the hell to save you V'z whfg ab bar...

Behind your beauty Your silhouette now being nasty Sometime more stronger then your own Create damages with fury and sworn Dear my breath and my soul I have nothing to offer except my pure soul My love to you is pure and bold And you wont find it from the crowd You know about this but not with dark angel You're sorry but its not you to blame Its dark angel that making the trouble Put me on the corner and made me like a lame But worry not my angel I have tool of my own I just simply smile in the battle Wind surely always blown My wings got so many holes My body is defect and not that perfect I don't mind as the target of your gross And I still love you that is the fact So, I'm hurt, embrace the pain and smile I just remembered that dark angel almost the same like mine V'z whfg ab bar...

Closed Can feel Bleed Just smile Stood up Determination Life of death Grateful Understanding I'm unique I'm okay Spread my wings and fly away V'z whfg ab bar...

The wind still not there I tried to blow it but cant be compared OTH my angel tried to heal the world I did my best with my broken wings to support I have nothing to offer except the will to help My ultimate weapon is empathy That can suppress the beast with lot of energies Now I am just like a kite with no string So weak, shaking and tried to live Tonight I know my place In my great palace as chair and work desk I will face another challenge That I need to face every moment My rest room with all creatures inside them Night still long... I am all alone But i am sure tomorrow Wind will blow and angel fly slow With my beast still howling low V'z whfg ab bar...

Dear my angel, my breath and my soul Sleep well and no worry my dear Storm has passed and roll You are safe now here I can hear your slowly breathe I can hear the peace in your sleep I can hear my heart beats I tried hard to keep quiet Dear my lady and my blood I cant bear my heart again While the beast inside me can slain I let my heart inside you as heaven So dear my lady No matter what happen to me You are safe from me My pure bold heart inside you While I kept the beast inside me If someday I can't tame the beast If someday you cant handle me no more If someday you said enough Just stab my heart inside you to stop me So you are safe from me Let it be me no more V'z whfg ab bar

I thought that wont come anymore The nightmare that I am afraid for After the smile and the cheerful I knew the dark side will come in full The silence pace can be felt Waiting till the horror  arrived Then there you go, the dark side that you are waiting for Come to terror you, and to whom you are asking help for? She has her smile again Its hurt me more when I remember I ever destroyed her No.. I will keep this pain inside No.. I will dried my tears alone No.. I wont spoil the sun light With my pathetic black wagon The more I saw you smile The more I am so afraid to broke you more The more I saw your joy The more I am so afraid to destroy I will tell her later I will ... but not now.. i wont spoil today joy with my stupid horror V'z whfg ab bar

And I did it again I just want to talk but I ruining it again I just did another mistake Almost everyday I seem so much clueless Want to company her, but end up hopeless But I knew this is not her fault Its because she keep her sadness and not let it out I don't mind dear if you keep mad of me As long as you can express the real you to me I'm not good listener I knew My care to you became another arrow Hurt me, punch me, I don't care As long as you are free, that what I care I kept pray for you, hope you are well Will do my best for you, though I will fight hell I did my mistake again And I dont regret it Cause no matter how hard the rain I still love you and hope I can do the right V'z whfg ab bar

Every sparks come up, You throw it to me I'm surrender.. Every sorrow you felt, You made me a target I'm surrender... Every mistake happened, you blame on me I'm surrender Every bad things happened, you target on me I'm surrender I can only offer my smile... even not as bright as used to be I can only offer my heart though half of it still in you dear Im just so damn lucky that you still want to talk to me No matter what happen to me, you are worth to die for me V'z whfg ab bar...

After I listened to your voice sent to him... I'm confuse... Which one is the hardest one... Between feeling my own pain.. or feeling the pain from how suffer you are And turned out... the pain is intense when I saw you suffer So.. I choose to be strong and stay beside you and sent my offer I dont have anything except the heart that is nothing the heart that has torn apart and broken wings And yup, you keep rejecting So I just smile but not give up put my head up hope she can stand up Let alone me I will be all right Just take your time I will just smile V'z whfg ab bar

Every words you said now like an arrow Fired and bullseye right to the heart I'm shaking, wounded, blood burst out But I stood up, and keep playing my art The art God given to me is dark The art of survival I got is hard You did many things with him like we were one heart I accepted this as punishment for my bad You talk about your time together with him as i am no one It hurt so much and doubled because i can feel your feeling But.. I am all right Shoot your arrow, anytime anywhere dear I am ready for you, the one that i care V'z whfg ab bar

My heart beats so fast... be strong dear, I can feel it because part of me still in her.. My stomach is cramped, be strong dear, I still connected to her... She shares how deep her love is to him, and it doubled my sorrow The fact that she is in hurt, make it triple effect of my sorrow My heart beats so fast.. but I need to be strong... All I wish that you can manage it without wrong... My body so stiff... my eyes heavy... my heart tremble... my body shaking... I can feel everything what she felt.. This is my gift and this is my curse, what can I say.. I do love her.. V'z whfg ab bar

I felt like a dirt... unwanted, rejected I felt like I needed, as a target of your furious raged I think i am a creep.. but now, I fully accept it Let me be your anything, as long as you can make it Spit on me hate me mock me sinister to me mad of me torture me rage, anger, everything just explode it to me I am strong, i can bear with it, as long you are happy On the end... I kept walking on the earth Crawling beneath the land... Hoping for some one.. That I believe will never come... V'z whfg ab bar...

Every time I think of it.. I felt heavy to my chest To known that you meet him instead of me When you told this, I hardly can rest But I swallow the pain, since it proof that you trust me Now you are with him.. not with me I'm still here to support you, with whatever in me I knew he hurts you, and I am very sorry I didn't tell that he didn't love you, to not make you unhappy This is the burden that on my shoulder now Put away my pain and sorrow, to make you not low All i know you need the strong of me So here I am, in whatever shape you wanna be V'z whfg ab bar