My Voiceless Screaming

As long as you are happy, I will support you If you think I only one from many, is okay too New year will come, Hope everything will be fine We have learnt our lesson well, now time to run I know you cant feel my feeling now Its okay, I will not put myself fall You also still trying to manage that sorrow But you are not alone,  I am in your row Bright future a head, means khurnudzon billah I can see you started to fly bi idznillah But then.. you started to denial again and rejected me I am sorry.. I dont mean to hurt you or push you wanna be I am just simply a human, with many imperfectly I think I will just shut the fuck off my mouth and only listen carefully I did that mistake again.. I am sorry I would do anything, to fix my stupidity But everything has been set by the One and Only All I can do now just smile and accept whatever you wanna be V'z whfg ab bar...

This pain.. I know this pain.. I had to feel it twice in a month.. Lucky that God giving me strength Lucky that by God will, I still love her and can always assist her Now she said to have her own time Ofc i should give her a space and some But dont you know that I can feel it too? dont you know that i am so tortured too... V'z whfg ab bar

Time is late.. All I want just simply a chat I know you don't want to talk to me, but I do want too I kept waiting, even you are in mad Because I do honest, I still missing you Time is tickling, and runs so slow But I need to be strong so can support you in low I know you are in love with him, though he doesnt But I do want you to move on and face the horizon Dear my lady please talk to me Dont be afraid of me, I wont push you to love me I do know you want your time being lonely I will stay here waiting, with no worry.. Night has late, soon I will lay on my bed I still waiting, till you send me a chat When you did sent me and telling me all right I relieved and can also rest without fight Sleep tight my lady... sweet dream From me.. no one and no exist in this realm V'z whfg ab bar

I know you talk with him again, I can't blame you When you said will leave him, He never leave you... I know you are in pain, I can feel you I cant do anything, except pray for you But keep in mind you are not alone in this rain I am also in your pain Half of my heart still in you What can I say.. in my memory can only hug you... Time runs so slow, you are still in sorrow By the time goes by, I am also so low Dear my lady, the one and only Hope you are fine and I am sorry V'z whfg ab bar

You said you are tired... with the pain.. with the agony.. with the uncertain Dont you know that I feel that way? But I need to keep strong, i need to restrain You said you loved him from teen.. long back decades before you loved me... So... what has been happened for the past 4 years? Does it wasted and gone in despair? Ofc not. No worry my dear, i know you dont mean it :) You are in hurt now, that's why you said it :) No worry my dear, though those 4 years nothing for you, but those are the precious days ever for me No worry my dear, when you are back to your own mind I know you will thanks again for whatever already be Hufh.. I dunno what's going on now.. the hurt so intense and so also the sorrow.... and I am also miserable, since I can feel you but without no one company me... Be strong my lady.. be strong for me.. hope tomorrow will be shiny V'z whfg ab bar

I was so weak and exhausted.. No energy left and lay on my bed Then you just show up with joy and colorful I have no idea how come i can jump up with full Well.. this would be my gift to take care others now i have better one, got sista to taken care then the others For her.. maybe i am just an uncle nothing less and nothing more For me, you are my angle helping you is helping me tho Now I could smile and glad... Hope everything gonna be all right... Now its up to you.. if you are happy and that would me too My heart is inside you still You do are my spirit and my will V'z whfg ab bar

I scream out loud... tears drop from my chin... I feel your agony and feel your pain I hate him so much for not loving you but I knew you want him happy although he hurts you I scream out loud and i am so in pain... I didnt show how bad I am since you need me in rain Dear my angel, my heart, my soul, my breath.. I can only be here for you in my very bad Feel that pain my lady, feel that sorrow Hope you can win, and later can face tomorrow Now let's embrace it... and surrender by God willing, tomorrow will be better And me... just dont think of me.. let me drawn in this furry and pain! FUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCK huhuhu V'z whfg ab bar

I felt so heavy to day, but I know its your feeling I felt so sad right now, but I know its not my feeling I felt so weak and laying on my bed now, can only strugling Wishing to my God and pray, hope you are shinning Dear my lady, hope you are strong and stunning I kept sent my prayer to God, hope you are okay by God willing Let alone me with my lonely I don't mind as long as you are happy :) V'z whfg ab bar

Today I am so miserably Though I have been used to be Being alone and unwanted to be But.. I am so missed her already Although she always mad of me recently Or sharing how hurt she is to me I dont mind being bully As long as she talk to me.. Hufh... I am so missing her I kept starring and look at her Waiting any respond from her even only a dot or simple emoticon from her Dear My Lady, dont your know I am like you now? Wanting for someone but cant have one? Dear My Lady, dont your know that I am suffer too? Want to hug some one but I cant have it too? All i can do now is patience.. Give her time and waiting in silence But I promise I will keep me for doing what forbidden And will always be here for you to hold you from fallen V'z whhf ab bar

I felt that everything I did was wrong... You accused me that I hurt you all the long... Dont you know that I also not that strong? But It seem you keep blame Im the wrong I accepted all, I admit I am wrong And I should embrace it and keep sing a song A song on how grateful I am to have you A song on how sorry I am to hurt you A song on how i love you A song on how lonely my life with you Blame me for everything I did... All my goodness are not exist except fail I dont mind being accused Because I do admit im just a beast without a tail Here I am.. a creep wanting an angel I do a moron asking for miracle... V'z whfg ab bar

Suddenly.. I felt so bold.. My pain in ease My sorrow are almost no more I can see the future waiting I can see the opportunity coming I still love her, nothing can change that But We both have hurt, and we need to survive! Now here we are again, trying to face the challenge with the spirit reborn, and determination to change Hope me and my sista, can be good team So we can chase and reach our dream The past has passed, let's create new memory Hope our spirit will last and steady I still love you... you still love him But me and you, will always be a team Now my lady, be prepared and ready Time for us to get our glory V'z whfg ab bar

At the end... my body couldn't handle it.. and I'm fall down.. I'm so weak and no one around.. Laying on my bed but my mind keep run Thinking of you and hope you can move on.. Wish u are here.. I'm so missing u Wish I can do more.. I want to help you Let alone no one know about how suffer I am now I will keep stay here waiting for you and wish u okay tomorrow V'z whfg ab bar

I know you are calm now.. But not okay.. Wish I can take away your sorrow, but I dont know what the hell I know you just want to keep it for yourself But I can feel it, that's all that I have... I'm holding you tight, wish can ease the pain Just like the dirt that washed by the rain.. You just stay still there, don't want anyone to come I can just silence here.. and I am numb.... Everything gonna be all right dear, just hang on there Tomorrow will come dear, I will always here to care V'z whfg ab bar...

When you share your hurt... When you share your pain... When you share how much you love him... When you share your emotion..  When you share everything... to me... Don't you know that I am feeling the same to you? Hope someday you will understand that I can feel your pain too Be strong my lady.. be good and be brave. Now God put trial on your determination My pray.. will always sent for you... V'z whfg ab bar

My heart beats so fast... be strong dear, I can feel it because part of me still in her.. My stomach is cramped, be strong dear, I still connected to her... She shares how deep her love is to him, and it doubled my sorrow The fact that she is in hurt, make it triple effect of my sorrow My heart beats so fast.. but I need to be strong... All I wish that you can manage it without wrong... My body so stiff... my eyes heavy... my heart tremble... my body shaking... I can feel everything what she felt.. This is my gift and this is my curse, what can I say.. I do love her.. V'z whfg ab bar

The tittle said everything.. and the bullets fly through my heart I am here with honest.. but well, she is in hard... Dear my lady and my angel.. hang on there If you think you can make me hate you, well you are wrong there You can do whatever you want to me, i will be okay My love is pure and strong, will always right beside you with care V'z whfg ab bar

She is so bitching today.. and also so fragile. I can understand her situation since I am on her position when she dumped me. Everything she felt now are same like what I felt. But with full of her rage and blind of love, how she could understand that she did the same thing to me. So I am sorry that you need to face it, I did my best but my body started to hurting me. The effect I got now doubled and seem no one can understand me. I fall sick, and i can only sorry to me. But well.. I wish she could pass this trial with easy... the following days would be hard and roughly. But no worry, I will always right here be ready, in whatever shape you want me to be. I just hope God give me strength and healthy.. because now i got fever and very low energy... V'z whfg ab bar..

I cried.. not because I hurt.. But because I can feel your pain and hurt You are in pain because you broke up with him... But I am so in pain Tears drop down from my chin, heart shaking and loosing the will of everything. I cant share with anyone, because i have no one... But if there is anything I could do to heal you, but I have no idea too. I just only whisper to my Lord... Dear Lord... I am a man with full of sin... I am so low and been many times forgot about You. But I am humble kneel down on my knees... Begging... if You could take a way that pain... Dear my Lady, the one and only. I know i cant talk to you or make you any happy. But I will always be here beside you, to make you company. I know I am just no one, nothing and no exist, but will always be here for you in any shape you wanna be. All I can do now I am sorry... and I am hugging your shadow in my memory... And now... you told me you dont want me.. you want him to hug you, not me. And you also dont

Every time you cried... I am so hurt... You keep talking about him.. and I am so hurt... You told me how deep your love is for him.. I am so hurt... You keep sharing how suffer you are now.... and I am so hurt... But dear my love and my lady I dont mind being hurt as long as you talk to me Dear my angel and my soul Dont hesitate to share anything just like use to be Wish there is someone who can understand the burden I have I am so lonely and hurt just like that Wish there is someone who love me just the way she love him I just can only envy and wish to be dead Dear my Lord the one and All Mighty I dunno what is Your plan for me wanna be Dear my Lord and one and only Please dont test me with something that can't be handled by me V'z whfg ab bar

I felt like a dirt... unwanted, rejected I felt like I needed, as a target of your furious raged I think i am a creep.. but now, I fully accept it Let me be your anything, as long as you can make it Spit on me hate me mock me sinister to me mad of me torture me rage, anger, everything just explode it to me I am strong, i can bear with it, as long you are happy On the end... I kept walking on the earth Crawling beneath the land... Hoping for some one.. That I believe will never come... V'z whfg ab bar...

I dunno what should I type here, since indeed I felt so complicated now. My heart still inside of her, and I can feel her love to him. This made me so hurt... At the same time, I knew you just broken heart. You expect more from him but he didn't return just the way you wanted. This also made me hurt... I love you. My love to you is whatever you are happy with whoever you wanna be. The situation you faced now really put me in the corner. I felt so many knifes stabbed to my chest and heart and I am hardly to understand what to do. I felt broken heart twice. The feeling when I broken heart because your left me and the feeling what you felt now. I felt so weak and sorrow, but I know this is not my own feeling. This is what you feel now. And at the same time, I also envy, jealous and hurt since I can see how big you crush on him, not me. This is my curse.. this could be my punishment, I am so suffer, but can only to understand. I will do whatever I can, just to make you happy. A

Every time I think of it.. I felt heavy to my chest To known that you meet him instead of me When you told this, I hardly can rest But I swallow the pain, since it proof that you trust me Now you are with him.. not with me I'm still here to support you, with whatever in me I knew he hurts you, and I am very sorry I didn't tell that he didn't love you, to not make you unhappy This is the burden that on my shoulder now Put away my pain and sorrow, to make you not low All i know you need the strong of me So here I am, in whatever shape you wanna be V'z whfg ab bar

When you talk about him, it hurts me, but i kept smile I don't mind being hurt, as long as you can smile When you miss him a a lot and share to me, I'm in sorrow But will always be your ear, so you don't need to feel sorrow Dear Lord I pray to You, so she can be united with him I don't mind being lonely, as long as she is happy V'z whfg ab bar...

I'm so glad to find out that you did well I'm so glad to know that you are fine I'm so glad to see you became a mature I'm so glad to understand that you are better What has been happened make me calm Seeing you like this make me all right The future I saw was so cloudy Now I can face the challenge with ready  V'z whfg ab bar

I'm so happy when ppl around me accepted me just the way I am I'm happy when I got your smile I'm happy when the ppl I care is happy I'm happy when I heard ppl around me laugh I'm happy when you trust me I'm happy when you message me I'm happy when you hug me I'm happy when you are smile I'm happy when you talk with me I'm happy when you say good bye before we sleep I'm happy when you say hi at the first time in the morning I'm happy when you still there for me I'm happy that I still have you inside of me V'z whfg ab bar

Wake up in the morning.. so tired Want to rest but got fucked... By the time your brain working, got stroked Realized that you are alone and she just left... Starring to her name.. wish she called your name Hesitation taken over your heart, will I make her cramp Dear Lord the One and All Mighty I just wish she is happy though without me.. Dear my Lord the One and Only I will start the day and please help me.. be her foundation to help her achieve whatever she wanna be... V'z whfg ab bar

Time is late, I am about to chase my dream But here I am, waiting for something that I know wont come A simple kiss and hug is what I am wishing Something that I miss that  can make me calm Oh Lord, a simple good bye is fine But I know all i wish is only an empty sky Night is late.. I am smiling good bye To my dearest and hope she is okay.. V'z whfg ab bar

He was in hurt when I found him I took care of him and made me as his home Now I'm the one who hurt and company by him Once I have a place and call it home My home is gone but my pain is stay I felt alone but he stays beside me In my tremble and fragile he is always there Now I know why I named him a bear since he persistent to save me With his body he kept me warmth With his kisses, he made me calm In this dark cold night I'm lingering still Rain drops down with the bear beside me V'z whfg ab bar

Hurt... Because You Still keeping half of me... Hurt... Because other is the one and its not me... Hurt... When I can see you online but not talk to me... Hurt... When I miss her so much, but can only keep it for me... This is my life, this is my agony What can I say, this is my destiny I do want to take a way that love out of me But what can I say.. it buried deep inside of me Dear my lady, the angel of mine i can only whisper that you are fine I have no idea on what to do I just know what I felt, that I only love you Dear my lady, please help me or anyone around, please tell me my heart beating so fast but i cant breath I take a deep breath.. but cant heal the wound what the heck... :(