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Complicated Hurt

I dunno what should I type here, since indeed I felt so complicated now. My heart still inside of her, and I can feel her love to him. This made me so hurt...
At the same time, I knew you just broken heart. You expect more from him but he didn't return just the way you wanted. This also made me hurt...

I love you. My love to you is whatever you are happy with whoever you wanna be. The situation you faced now really put me in the corner. I felt so many knifes stabbed to my chest and heart and I am hardly to understand what to do.

I felt broken heart twice. The feeling when I broken heart because your left me and the feeling what you felt now. I felt so weak and sorrow, but I know this is not my own feeling. This is what you feel now. And at the same time, I also envy, jealous and hurt since I can see how big you crush on him, not me.

This is my curse.. this could be my punishment, I am so suffer, but can only to understand.
I will do whatever I can, just to make you happy. Although at the end, I could be end..

V'z whfg ab bar
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