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I am Happy

Welcome back dear my old friend
Been very long time
I miss you so much
I am very glad that you came

Though I have emotion no more
Though my heart was blunt
Turn out I still can feel you
The warmth from the blood that burst from my wound

Yes I know my place
And yes I know where I belong
Yes I know I'm the one who sick
And yes I know I'm the one who seek

I am happy dear
Come my sadness
Make my face warm with the tears
I hug you tight the hurt and fear

Good bye the light on sun rise
Good bye the light on sun set
I knew from beginning
Its just another dream, just like it used to be

V'z whfg ab bar...

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