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First Contact

Thought I am ready
Talk to the world lovely
It was an easy chat with my best friend
But end up I cried worry at the end

I dunno if its so hard to open again
Only to hear his suggestion, it made me tremble
Only to imagine talking to others, I'm shaking
What happen to me?  I just don't know me anymore

So, what next then?
If simple words already hurt me
Its not about prestige or dignity
Its about me who is like a bundle of meat

Easy to bleed
Waiting for extinct

What should I do then
If I'm not ready to face the world?
"99% business can be succeeded by facing the people", he said
So, am I already fail?

What will happen to me if everyone leave me?
What will happen to me if I only a burden for everyone near me?

At least now you or me understand, why I or other leave each others
Its better to be alone then hurt each others
So now dear my Dark Angel... If someday you have a better one
Just leave me and I will be okay

As long as you are happy, I am happy as well
I love you, but I can't be that great person anymore
You are so beautiful while I'm just nothing
Loosing the will of live and waiting....


V'z whfg ab bar

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