My Voiceless Screaming

I know I should sleep now, but I am afraid my beast act weird tomorrow, but this moment is too bad to be forgotten, so I have a peace now with my beast (hi beast lol). I got a good feeling after watching "Instant Family". And I better to write this down now. Everyone has their own obstacles in their life, just like my devil's said few minutes ago, everything has its own reason. Also with the angel who just come down with different shape of her and greets me, she said maybe that's how universe work. I don't know how the future looks like, but I am very grateful at the end we made a peace with our hurt, pain and the past. I am not sure if tomorrow i will be back to dark, cold and blue again, but at this moment, for those of you who has bipolar, just don't give up. At the end you will have those people who will be there for you when you need them most. Don't think too much hard, just like my devil's said, just trying to survive day by day. And I pro...

This is what I felt also... :(

I have a spare time and need to keep me busy, so I wrote this. I am not good English speaker so apologize for the grammar. See Us as a Person We can't just introduce to everyone with, "Hi, I'm bipolar", no we can't do that. No matter how frequently you remind us that it’s okay not to be okay, stigma will always be there. See us as a person first who has bipolar. We Are Not Using Bipolar as an Excuse You are wrong if you think that if I can't do this and that or if you direct us something that I can't do, I use bipolar as an excuse. What I felt with pain and hurt is real just the way it is. Its serious threat and sometime I do so close to cut my veins or just give up on my motorcycle to let it go. Just a side note, a dangerous thing for bipolar motorist is that when we having our manic, we could ride our vehicle as fast as we could because we are so confident and happy. And for those who has "rapid swing" like me, it’s a matter of second...