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Happy Moment

I know I should sleep now, but I am afraid my beast act weird tomorrow, but this moment is too bad to be forgotten, so I have a peace now with my beast (hi beast lol). I got a good feeling after watching "Instant Family". And I better to write this down now.

Everyone has their own obstacles in their life, just like my devil's said few minutes ago, everything has its own reason. Also with the angel who just come down with different shape of her and greets me, she said maybe that's how universe work.

I don't know how the future looks like, but I am very grateful at the end we made a peace with our hurt, pain and the past. I am not sure if tomorrow i will be back to dark, cold and blue again, but at this moment, for those of you who has bipolar, just don't give up. At the end you will have those people who will be there for you when you need them most.

Don't think too much hard, just like my devil's said, just trying to survive day by day. And I promise you, you will have beautiful persons around you who will sacrifice themselves for you and show you that they will be there with the best they could.

I knew how bad and disaster the casualties made because of our rage and furry. Just keep your med, move your ass forward and fix the damage you have done. And yeah, we are crave of that hug so don't be shy of it.

For my devil and angel who are out there, thank you and I love you. This moment is quite rare, but I will enjoy every seconds of it in... hm.. of course in my loneliness(damn, the beast just broke the peace treaty again lol)

V'z whfg ab bar...
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