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The Battle

Day 4, I think I win it
Or I slept because I'm just too weak?
I don't see any different, and I am still trying to figure it out
Should I take the pill or not and because of you I still swallowed it

In this reality, I don't have that superpower who helped me
Combined with so much I miss her, I have no idea what's worst? The beast or missing her?
I don't see any different, I still very lonely in this time only
But well, maybe the med is too late? Because I am too old already?

Time is ticking, sun will rise
If I did can get out from the dark
Do I still can feel the wind stroke my face?
Does my angel still being there for me?
Will I be somebody else?

The beast keep whisper and seem make sense to me
All this time I am living in the dark
Will I survive in the light?
I miss that hurt already...
I want to scream out load crying, but I cant
Something hold me

And this poem, I don't give damn fuck with rhyme anymore
And the battle still goes on
And I am in the middle of confusing whirlwind

I'm still lonely... can somebody help me?
Or let alone the beast company me?
I am afraid of what will happen to me
I became somebody else and all leave me

V'z whfg ab bar...

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