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Hitting the Wall

Your kids are not real
Your wife are not real
All seem so far away and I can't be heal
The only real thing you can feel is the loneliness that you can't deal

The feeling that you just want to give up
Expecting a real hug that you will never have
The loneliness that torture you rise up
Keep finding the reason to stay alive

Less people want to bear it
At the end you felt that you need to face it alone
I got bipolar and I accept it
Hitting the wall just to make me not down

Who can understand how painful it is
The feeling that crush your will of live
No wonder everyone at the end leave
Hard to understand for me why they insist to make me alive

Years ago I can make it to stay alive
When I am about to stop my breath
Now I felt more easy to do so
But I tried my best to hold your words

You said you do care fore me
So, Im staying alive to make your care important for me
Will it be enough to make me survive?
The hurt still there, but for now I think its enough

V'z whfg ab bar...
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