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What Will Happen?

I had a house with the angel who saved me
She has another, burnt the house to the ground and i almost lost everything
I survived, but years with humiliation

I then have a new house again with another angel who saved me
She has another one but don't want to let me go. She burnt the house, and I am in a big debt and felt in very filthy community
I survived, with broken helmet, my jaw miss located, saved several times by those who care when I am bout to jump to the valley

I then have a new house, the most shiny then any other house
I did a mistake, she left me for other
I survived, with hand got cut...

I then have a same house, still shiny and i love her still
She left me again, for the same person
i survive, with bruise and blue in my hand

Then now, I have a same house, still shiny and i love her still, but
got the rule inside, its possible she left me if he ask for her. Also its possible to to have her thirsty filled by other if I can't give it to her.
All not happen yet, but... If it did happen, can i survive this time?

We are together but I felt alone. I love her but I m just nothing and don't have any bargain to give for. i wish there is someone who really want to up and down together. Even its for sin... but it seem, I asked too much... Even I myself cant take care of my own, how can I can be seen by others?

i am already a slave.. slave of my beast, slave of the world, slave of the darkness.

I wish I'am not born

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