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"How come you can protect the one you love while you can't protect yourself?"

Yeah...

"That's why that happened, that's your mistake you can't make it to protect her"

Yeah...

"Does it hurt now?"

Yeah....

"So why bother? No one give a damn shit about you"

Hm.. some of them still

"Well, the fact that you are alone now, just look at to your screen without no one to talk too"

Yeah...

"And this is weekend, they are having their time and better without you!"

Yeah...

"So where are the angel, devil, or any one who think really care about you?! lol"

.. *silence*

"Your angel left you because you are a burden for her"

Yeah...

"You see the wind or the devil but you are to afraid to talk and became nuisance for them"

Yeah...

"So, the best friend of yours now is me"

Yeah..

"I am the one who help you keep survive with rage, anger, hate, sad and sorrow or glory!"

Well... yeah...

"So.. What are you waiting for?"

Hm....

"You felt that hurt and pain inside right?"

Yeah...

"So much of it till you barely to breath"

Yeah...

"So use that scissors in your hand now, and take out the pain inside you, it will make you better just like the old time!"

Hm.. But i have my promise...

"To whom?? Those who leave you now alone?"

hm...

"see, You tried to be strong and hold your tears to drop, you are so pathetic!"

Its hurt so bad... but i have my promise... I wont let them down... They do care to me

"Who? your angel who disappointed you?"

Im not disappointed by her!!

"So why you bother thinking of her? she is an adult, she can choose whatever she wants!"

I failed to protect her, after trying for years... but i do still care her

"But nothing you can do, right?"

yeah...

"She dumped you, you are a burden for her, and you want her to be free, right?!"

Yeah...

"So, you dont have any promise to keep anymore! You are free now since she doesn't keep her promise too"

Yeah.... fuck..

"So, use that scissors in your hand, take out the pain inside of you.. only small scratch, i bet it will be better"

I have my promise to the devil!

"Her? who left you now in the weekend alone?"

But she is the only one who is "there" for me now!

"Where?! she uses her time with her special one, not you!"

But she do really care and she spare her time trying to save me! I know it!

"ok fine, but you only promise to not hurt your head! you can take out the pain from your hand or any other places"

But.. I don't want to to disappoint her.. I already lose someone special, not another one... No I won't..

"muahahahaha you try to survive behind their words?! how long do you think they will be "there" for you?!"

err....i dunno.. just trying to survive day by day...

Just a conversation at the afternoon, with rage, lonely and pain....
V'z whfg ab bar...

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