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Good Bye My Friend

At the first time I met you
Wounded, thin and so small, I take care of you
You got bigger and I underestimate you
I wounded and I be taken care by you

Dear my friend, years we are together
For me you are my brother
Facing many difficulties together
You always make me feeling better

Dear my friend, do you remember how hurt i am when someone tortured you?
I taken care of you, and you lay down over there weak
Then we gone through of it
You let me heal you till you are fit and sweet

Dear my friend..
Do you remember how many places we both been through?
The rocky road that we faced?
You always be there accompany and be strong for me

Dear my friend...
In my sadness, in my sorrow, in my tears
You calm me down with your furr
You always know when I need you

Dear my friend...
I am sorry that sometime I'm not letting you out to the wild
Afraid of loosing you
The only friend that I got who close to me is you
I am sorry that sometime I harsh to you
Occupied with my ego
I am sorry bro..

Dear my friend...
Hope you are happy out there at the wild
I am sorry to left you behind
I am sorry to make you in sorrow and left you
I wish i could take care more of you

You always follow my prays with your tender voice
I remember we talking to each other
And now you are gone...
I never know how precious you are till you are gone

We can't play together anymore
We look up each other no more

Farewell my friend, hope you found a better home then I do
Your name is bear, you are my brother, and I will always remember you

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