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Sebenarnya aku bingung harus mulai darimana menggambarkannya. Kadang maksud yang termaktub dalam sebuah tulisan bisa disalah artikan oleh seseorang tergantung keadaan hatinya. Dan yang lebih sulit lagi adalah, ketika kita ingin mengakui dan memberikan penghargaan kepada orang-orang yang sudah peduli kepada kita, tapi malah terjebak dalam pusaran yang rumit antara arti yang satu dengan arti yang lainnya, tergantung penafsiran orang yang membacanya.

Persfektif, sebuah kata yang memang sederhana namun penting. Dan kadang hal yang indah malah menjadi pertarungan antara beberapa ego yang buat aku sendiri melihatnya menjadi sedih. Bila ku memilih diam, aku takut kehilangan mereka. Dan ketika aku berbicara, malah mendorong sebuah ketidak adilan bagi yang satu dan yang lainnya. Dan kadang apesnya, sasaran yang diharapkan malah diam seribu bahasa wkwkwkwk.

Tapi itulah pernak perniknya dunia. Jangankan tulisan yang beralinea-alinea, sebuah twit dengan hashtag "cc #ayang" aja terlihat biasa bagi sebagian pembaca dan bikin panas untuk yang lain, ya kan wkkwwkkw

Yang jelas aku lagi pusing, sepusing hasrat dari diri yang ingin motoran dari kota ke kota lepas bebas bersama sang kekasih tapi terikat oleh dr iwan yang ada di kota ini. Haish...

Tulisan hari ini emang sangat absurd. Termotivasi dari film the Post, tapi malah menjadi tulisan yang mungkin paling banyak dihapus berkali-kali dan ditulis ulang tapi tetap gak tentu arah. Ah sudahlah... beginilah kalo lama gak ada kabar dari satu-satunya temen bicara, siapa lagi kalo bukan dark angel tercinta... hufh.. pasrah saja :)

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