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Zero

So.... I need to start over everything from zero. Years passed and just realized I was running and running from the real toxic source.
Now I need to face it... Trying to be tough when seeing her tears, be careless and try to stop sacrificing myself just advised by my doc....

But its hard.... so hard... especially when you heard your daughter laugh...

Feeling guilty...
Feeling to be a bad man...
Feeling sad...
I felt don't have heart..
Every bad things can be heard echoing in my mind...I am fighting with myself...

I just want to sit on the top of the hill... silence and feel my peace...
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