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Being Honest

I thought you could be the one
I can forget my forbidden love
I can be the normal one
Guess I was wrong, I felt no one

I thought I could leave her
Stop being a threat for the love one
But what can I say I tried too
With the best I could, I still love her

I thought you are stronger
With your horn and crusher
When the beast wake up inside me
You can defeat it and conquer

You said dont put hope on you
I did but the hope grows
I felt being special one
But well, when you told your dark secret, I am fine

OTH, when my lover told her pain
It hurts me so bad
when my angel told her dark secret with him
I almost fainted and world like end

Now in this morning
I miss both of you calling
Hurt started to rampage
When I felt I am being the lonely one

Everything wont be the same
One thing for sure
I will always with my dark one
Trying hard to tame it and hope hurt no one

In this time only
Always you the one who called me
"ding" here you go.
You still my special one

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