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What Should I Do?

One hell of a day
For no reason, so many calls

From zero to many
But most of them share their pity

What should I do?
Since I am the only

When they need my cares
And they are in their sadness

Should I shun them
And tell my sorry?

Meanwhile, normal living just about to begin
I tried to work, just like other human being

What should I do?
Since I am the only

On the other hand, I got my special one
Those angels who help me stand

By the time they need my help, I cant stand
What should I do? Since I only a man

Now I need to write them down
to lesser the pressure in my mind

But how can I freely to express them
While everyone can read them

How about if what I wrote make them guilty?
Or worse.. harm them and feel sorry?

What should I do?
Should I stop what I do?

I afraid to be free
I dunno how suppose to be

For what I have seen
I do hope to be other body
who is normal not like me
What should I do?

Dear God please help me...
What should I do?

My heart started to wound
Blood flows through the eyes
What should I do?
And I already cried
I screaming with no voice cried

WHAT SHOULD I DO?!!!!!!!

My debts are high
What should i do?

My family is broken
What should I do?

My brain is damaged
What should I do?

Sometime I can read creature's mind
What should I do?

I got tumor in my body
What should I do?

My financial in trouble
What should I do?

everyone has their own problems
And they share and ask help from me
What should I do?

What should I do damn it!!!!!!!
What Should I doooooooooooooooo

Fucked... I wish just could vanish just like that
What should I do... Dear Lord what should I do...

And you both when read this
I bet you will feel sorry
feel guilty
And make my wound more deeply
What should I do?!

My energies drained out
What should I do?

My deadline still coming
What should I do?

Im so weak and exhausted
What should I do

I hurt inside, the pain so real
I just want to get it out and not to feel
What should I do..

My body shaking, I am in low
Dark one come to laugh again
And I cant send my blow
I hold myself again.. kneel down in the rain

What should I do.... please answer me what should I do.
My head spinin.. every object in front of me seem interesting
to get my suffer inside out and lesser the pain
But surely it will make them more guilty and afraid of me
While i am the one who need them most
What should I do...

V'z whfg ab bar
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