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The Angel

Long time ago there was a fallen angel
So beautiful and always help me in the struggle
Now she has back to the heaven
Left me behind and broken

I thought I can say finally
When she reach my heart directly
After she brought my wall down
I surrendered to her all my own

I did my mistake that I regret
She could helped me while Im not
Universe revenged that what I get
She found a better one that she got

It hurts and tortured me to death
But I still love her deep in my heart
Now what matter is her happiness
All I can do is pray and hope her the best

In my weak, broken and hopeless
I should feel when he hurts her
But now I can understand her love endless
Cause she still love him though he hurts her

By the time goes by
I finally can see your smile
Now you have strong wings to fly
And you said u never say bye

You said you happy now and be free
Can go anywhere without worry
Ofc I'm so damn happy
But at the same time I felt agony

The angel still there at the heaven
With her new wings and can't be forgotten
She visited me in some occasion
But I know I've been forgotten

Now I'm alone again in deep ocean
World so empty and my dream has taken
I missed her care I missed her hair
I now can only breath the empty air

Dear God, thank you to granted my wish
I can see her now can flourish
Now what should I do..
Cause I dunno what to do

My wings are broken
My wall has fallen
I thought I can say finally
But then this not the end of the journey

I'm longing when she said goodbye
Every time when I will close my eyes
She tortured me with many ways
But I can't stop loving her and smiles

Now just live day by day everyday
Can only think its the best way
2/3 of my time has been passed by
I will just be grateful as long as you are smile

I used to talk with her whole day
Now I can only talk in this way
Thanks God that's all I can say
Cause I still can see the angel come by

Not much i knew.. but for a dog astray like me.. its better then no at all... i knew who I am :)

V'z whfg ab bar

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