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Speechless


Rejected
Unwanted
Useless
Not worthy
You are nothing
You just no one
You cant be compared with them
You are disease
You are the source of the problem
You are the one to be blamed
All the arrows, thrown by the dark side hit me

In my broken wings
Crawling against the wind
I kept walking
Against the odd
Trying to help the goddess
or could be the angel, anything who you wanna be

But one by one the arrows started to deeper and deeper
I am trying hard to conquer
But be realistic
Everyone has their own time
I should be the one who need to buy time
till one of them ready to call me
Cause i am very lonely...

V'z whfg ab bar...
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