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Life or Death

Simply normal living
Maybe easy like ice cream

I tried to following
But its hard for me

Laugh together with joy
Could be fun thing

I tried too boy
But oh boy... I almost dying

Joking around about something
Looks like fun while talking

I tried too and talking
But I almost died sinking

What about made a joke while i am struggling?
Its hurting like a knife stabbing

Made a joke for what I will do to make it easy?
It just digging and make the wound more bleeding

For the rest, joking maybe just laughing
But for me, its about life or death fighting

For the rest, blogging maybe for fun thing
But for me, Its a way so save my life from dying

Don't be alarmed, its not your mistake
Since I am the one is the mistake

Don't sorry for anything you did
Because you didn't do any wrong, I'm the one who bid

Bid and trying to have something just everyone had
End up hurting myself, something that i tried to hide

So... I am sorry
I think I will choose lonely
I'm too dangerous for myself
especially for my honey

V'z whfg ab bar

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